Sunday, May 30, 2010



As soon as I get this posted, I am going to get up from here and take a shower and get ready to go to church. 

As I write, I am listening to AOL radio and Tennessee Ernie Ford is singing;


and it brings back so many childhood memories.

I remember my mama had an old radio that she listened to constantly. It crackled and buzzed as it played, but it was one of the very few luxuries she was able to have back in those days on Horseshoe Bend. She loved music and come to think of it, she seemed to love all kinds…just as I do now.

Looking back, it seemed that the radio station stayed tuned to country more times than not…In my mind,  I can still hear Roy Acuff, Patsy Cline, and Tex Ritter’s voices coming from that little radio, that my mama kept in the kitchen. I often wonder how many little children now days are lucky enough to hear their mama singing as she makes  breakfast or supper for them…as we did back then.

She could sing beautifully too!  I remember her telling me that when she was but a young girl, she and her older sister Helen use to sing together…and was once requested to sing on radio. This art of singing has seemed to have passed down through the years. I know one of Aunt Helen’s daughters can sing beautifully, as I heard her singing at my other Aunt’s funeral.  Several of my mama’s daughters and grand daughters have this gift also.

Can you just imagine??? It never dawned on my young mind, but it sure does now…


That my mama was only 27 when I was born and had already given birth to five children before me…She lived in a house that had no running water…She had no rugs on the bare, never painted, never varnished wooden floors…Nor any paint on the wooden plank walls of that little four room home…

No heat in the winter,except for the one pot bellied stove and nothing to cool it in the hot Georgia summers, except for one little metal osculating fan…She did without so much that others would have taken for granted, even back then in the hard times. Some would say she had nothing to sing about…

But she sang…and she sang beautifully.

No state of the art stereo system, nothing we or anyone else could sing, would ever sound as sweet as my mama’s voice drifting through that old ramshackle house ….

A voice which still travels through my mind, my soul and my heart today.

If you are blessed to still have your mama…

Be sure to tell her how much you love her today before it’s too late….and don’t forget to thank her for all the many things that she may have sacrificed just for you.

Even  if she has went on to wait for you in that Heavenly home…

You can still tell her.


Wednesday, May 26, 2010


Sunday, I didn’t go to church…and I hope the good Lord forgives me, because Sunday I had a chance to be with family…and that is something that I haven’t been able to do in a long time. Dan, Amanda, Kelvin,the children and I all went to a family fish fry in Eatonton!

There was some real good food there too! I haven’t had Nanny’s ( Danny’s mama ) hush puppies in ‘coon ages’, so they were a real treat for me! Not to mention Kathy’s delicious Red Velvet Cake, and Connie's FAMOUS pecan pie, the grilled pork chops and fried cat fish by Scott and Doug…just to name a few lip smacking items on the menu!


Danny’s sis; Connie and his mama; Gladys (holding Will !)

All thoughts of food aside, there is nothing quite like being able to sit down with family, friends and loved ones and catch up on all their news and happenings…and just to be able to relax and be yourself.


        Danny’s sis; Kathy and her boyfriend Doug.

Of course, I was also hopping up and checking on Wyatt every once in a while…He had himself a great time with all the other children there…and also with his  great-uncle Nathan…who he took to calling  “Paw-Paw” !!


       Wyatt and his Great-uncle Nathan ( aka Paw-paw! )


                  Wyatt, Jacob, Brianna and Julie playing


                    Wyatt and Brianna in their  “pool” !!!

Will enjoyed all the attention he was getting from Ray’s little girls. I think every time I looked, he was in someone else’s arms…his nanny, his big mama and his Aunt Beth… Which was right up Will’s alley!


                          Danny’s mama and William

Oh, I enjoyed it sooooooo much. One of the things I always loved about Danny’s family was the get –togethers they always had on special occasions or on just any ordinary day….like Sunday’s was. The only one missing was Danny himself, and I think he may have been there too…in spirit…I know he was there in my heart.

I started Tuesday out by cutting my grass and had not pushed the mower but a few feet when it stopped on me….so off to Sisson’s Lawn Mower shop I go with the mower in the trunk of my car. Thank God for Wayne and his brothers and his wife for being there when I need them. Wayne and Bill came out and got the  mower out of the car trunk for me as soon as I got there and had it fixed in no time! You can’t ask for any better service than that.


              Danny’s sis; Connie and husband David

I had to go to the chiropractor today. My back has been hurting for about two weeks now, but I kept putting off going to the Dr. It didn’t feel like my sciatic nerve like it was right after Danny died, so I figured I had bumped up against something or such and it would straighten itself out…This morning, when I got up at 6:30, I knew it couldn’t wait any longer, I could hardly move without screaming out in pain.

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So,  I went and he said it was a pinched nerve…such a little bitty phrasedoesn’t sound like much does it?  But oh the pain it has caused me! I was hollering every time he did something and I got to thinking what the other patients may be thinking…so I said, “ I hoep I don’t run all your other patients away and he told me, “Nah…just walk out the door saying  real loud,“wow! He healed me!!!”

I finally got my bottom teeth fixed where they fit in my mouth too…so that in itself  is a big relief!  I plan on getting them all pulled before long, and also have to make an appointment with my eye doctor for new specs…as soon as my back gets a little better. One thing at a time.

This is Memorial Day weekend and I expect that the BBQ will be very busy. We usually are and have actually sold out of all the BBQ in years past. 

You know, on certain holidays it is so hard for me emotionally. When  me and Danny got married , one of she things I wanted was to make holidays special for our little family…and so we always had a little cook out on Memorial day, Fourth of July  and Labor Day and such…Now that he is gone, most all of the cook outs and family times are too.

I miss that so much.


                 Wyatt found a whole in the fence!

Something that we don’t think about much is that our life can change at any timewhether it is because of death or divorce or our children growing up and moving away from homethings change. The family times that we may have taken for granted or even fussed about, what with all the work involved in getting it all together…can stop at any time and …

Well, one day, you may very well be wishing  for it again.

We live and learn don’t we?

Thank You God for Your many blessings on me and for the chance to have FAMILY TIME once again.


Wednesday, May 19, 2010


One of my favorite Bible verses is Isaiah40:31:

“ But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint. ”

Whenever I feel discouraged, I think of this verse … and trust me;  it has helped me to get through some rough times.
To me, it means that although God may not answer our prayers in our time, or in our wayHe will answer them in His time and in His way.

                       My sweet mama

Down through the years of my life…I can remember sometimes thinking , “why doesn’t God answer my prayer ?”  Looking back now, years later, I know that God did indeed answer my prayers…each and every one of them.

Oh, it may not have been the answer I had been praying for, ( thank goodness ) but I realize that He always knew far better than me what I needed each and every timeand He supplied it. See, God already knows what the future holds for usand we don’t.

             Wyatt  at his table at Maw-maw’s house

When I think back on all the prayers that I can remember sending up to God … prayers for things that I thought I needed or prayers for what I thought would be the right outcome to some situation in my life at the time, well  it is a wonder if God even listens to me anymore!
I can just see Him shaking his head when He heard some of those prayers that I sent up and wondering if He remembered to put a brain in my head when He crated me!

                   Little Will loves spaghetti!

Tonight, I am grateful. I am grateful for the friends and folks that God puts in my life…I firmly believe that each and every one of them was given to me for a reason.

I am grateful for my family and thank God for all the days we are allowed to share together here on earth.

And in the words of Garth Brooks
Sometimes I thank God for unanswered prayers
Remember when you're talkin' to the Man upstairs…
That just because He doesn't answer, doesn't mean He don't care…

Some of God's greatest gifts…
 Are unanswered prayers.


Saturday, May 15, 2010


Whew…I am so glad that this work week is over with.

Isn’t it strange how we wish all our days away while we are working ?

And how come the three days that I work go so much slower than the four days that I am off ?


Sort of like when your kids are small, you are all the time wishing they would hurry up and get big enough to take care of themselves…then when they grow up and leave home, to take care of themselvesyou wish they were little again.

I think that is why being  a grandparent is so much fun…You get the best of both worlds…


I love my grandbabies so much. I never thought you could love someone as much as you do your children…but these two little boys have stolen my heart.


Wyatt was over here at my house Wednesday. His mama was getting William ready to go home  and asked me to take Wyatt outside and get him seated in his car seat.  Well on the way to the car, little Wyatt took a detour and saw his Turtle pool/sand box sitting up on the picnic table.

He immediately started saying, “Pool Maw-maw”… and then…“water Maw-maw” and finally, as he struggled to pull the water hose off the holder… in the loudest little voice he could muster… FIM MAW-MAW ”  . ( ‘Fim’  is Wyatt's way of saying swim. )

I honestly tried to dissuade him…I truly did…telling him that his mama wanted him to go home with her…that Will was already in the car…that we would “Fim” another day…but it wasn’t working…

That baby wanted to “fim”  and nothing was going to change his mind…It was either put him in the car and watch as he cried his little heart out…or let him “Fim”. So, I told his mama to go ahead and I would bring him on home later on.


Now I had a lot to do…not to mention that my legs and feet were swollen and hurting pretty bad…but I could not let that baby go home when he wanted to “fim " so badly.

And so he stayed with ‘Maw-maw’….and she let him “Fim”….and he swam….and he swam….and he swam…Then the little girl and boy down the street came up…Wyatt loves this little girl and calls for her by name every time he is over here in my front yard.

So, while they were here, the kids had themselves a little picnic, a sort of pool party I guess you could call it…as I gave them all some Vienna sausages , crackers, and ice cold pieces of  watermelon…

And my little Wyatt was in heaven!!!               


By that time, they could have sawed these two old swollen legs slap off my body for all I cared…

Because for me to be able to see that baby enjoying himself like he did…

Well, let me tell you…

that is one memory that will last my lifetime

and beyond…

If the good Lord will let it.


Sunday, May 9, 2010



Yesterday, when I came home from work, Kelvin and Amanda came over and brought me two Knock Out Rose bushes from Wyatt and William for my Mother’s Day gift! I love roses! Then I got to watch Wyatt while Amanda and Kelvin went to a movie and ate out. Jessie  was kind enough to watch little Will for us.


                             My Knock-out Roses

Then this morning, Amanda, Kelvin and the kids surprised me and came to church! Charity and her children were there also! It was so nice to have family there ! I even got to see one of my cousins that I hadn’t seen in a while there!!!  Charity’s two daughters got up and sang some songs and they were so good! Wyatt loved their singing so much that he stood up in the pew and started swaying back and forth, clapping his little hands, and God bless his little heart; singing along with them, the only song he knows…



             Sitting in Church with Maw-maw

After church, I was taken out to eat at the Chop House in Madison…with my all my kids (Kelvin too!) and my grandchildren there…We had to wait a long time outside the restaurant, they were that busy, but it was worth it…the food was delicious!  This was the best Mother’s Day that I have had in a long time and the best part was having my young-uns sitting beside me at church.


        Wyatt, yesterday at Maw-maw’s house

Dan and I got home this afternoon, and went to see my mama out at the Nursing home.  She didn’t know me at first, but after we were there for a while, she knew me. I bought her a new pair of pants and a nice blouse and also a new house coat…along with some candy and an ice cold coke and she was happy.  I also cleaned her winter clothes out her closet and put some springtime clothes in for her.


   Little Will taking his big brother’s car for a spin!

My mama was a good mama  and her life wasn’t an easy one.

I remember how when I went out on a date, she never went to bed until I walked in the front door and she could make sure I was okay.  That use to bug me as a teen, but you know, after you have teens ( and even older children) of your own, you began to understand some things….

Like, no matter how old your children get, you will still worry about them….


No matter how old you get, you would still lay down your life for them,  if it came to that.


          “Doodle-Doo”.. the rooster at my house

Being a mother is one of the hardest jobs there is, but also one of the most rewarding…

I wouldn’t  take a million dollars for the hugs and the sloppy wet kisses that my children gave me when the were little  …

Or the “I love you mama” or the “ night-night mama” that will live forever in my heart and soul.

That is what’s so special about being a grandma…You get to live it all over again and this time, you know what’s most important about child raising….

L – O – V - E

And you’ve lived long enough to know that….

All those  fancy “bringing up baby” books you read…

Well, didn’t amount to a hill of beans, did they ?


Saturday, May 8, 2010



When home computers became widely available, the stores would send out sales flyers advertising  the newest  models, and I wanted one so bad. I would look at each and every sales paper much like a child would look at the “Sears Wish Book” at Christmas!

Danny caught me looking at them one day and evidently even heard me sighing…like I always did, whenever I came to my senses and stopped my looking and dreaming. When he asked me what I was looking at, I was too embarrassed to tell him..after all, I didn’t even know how to turn a dag-blame computer on, much less get any use out of it…and even the cheapest computer was way out of our reach.

Danny was always full of surprises. For instance, if you didn’t know Danny like I did…you would have thought he was a very simple country man…but oh..he was so much more.

Danny was one of the smartest men I have ever known…what he may have lacked in formal education, he more than made up for in good old common sense….something a lot of people have very little of now days.

He could fix anything. He did plumbing, electrical, mechanical, carpentry…you name it and he could do it. Complicated things that had to be put together… he never even read the instructions…he never had toMy daddy always said that there were people with book sense and then there were people with common sense and between the two… he would choose the common sense person every time…My daddy loved Danny just as if he was his own son.

Like I said, Danny was full of surprises…Like the year he did without lunch at his job , because he saved  his lunch money to buy me a Micro Wave for Christmas….

Or the time he did odd jobs while I was at work…

To buy me that computer I had dreamed of for Christmas…

I remember ripping the wrapping paper off  the huge box that mysteriously appeared under the tree that Christmas morning…and  I remember begging Danny to take it back before I even opened the box…

You see, I knew he had to have paid A LOT for it, way more than we could afford and I felt so guilty…and so very dumb…After all, I didn’t even know how to turn the thing on, much less do anything with it.

I can still hear him telling me… “Carlene…just take the thing out of the box, let me get John to set it up for you and then you just play with it…I know you Carlene…you won’t stop until you learn it.” 

As always, he was right…Because the more I “played with it”,  the more I liked it, and the more I liked it, the more I learned.

Then I found a place called AOL JOURNALS….and I dove right in head first. See, from the time I could form sentences and be able to write them on paper,  I have loved to write my thoughts down. As a child, when I had enough money saved, I would go to the old dime store in town and buy me a little diary…the kind with the padded fake leather cover and the strap with the little gold lock and key on front. I don’t know how many of those little diaries that I filled up as a child, but what I do know is that I have wished a many a time that I hadn’t been so dumb as to throw them all away when  I thought I was too old for such things!

So anyway…when I found AOL JOURNALS on line, I was in heaven! I began to write…and write …and write.

I wrote about my childhood out on HORSESHOE BEND, and I also wrote about mine and Danny’s everyday life.  A few people began to read my journal…and then a few more….and before I knew it, I began to meet some wonderful folks.

This went on for a couple of years and then on Jan. 29, 2006… world stopped turning.

That Sunday morning started out  like every other Sunday morning in our lives…Except that before the day was over, Danny had a massive heart attack and I became a widow. I was no longer an “us” and I was alone for the first time since I was sixteen.

When Danny died…I kid you not…there were weeks after his death, where I did not sleep at all at night …I couldn’t…Hey, it took me months to even take my daytime clothes off ( yes  took baths!) and put a night gown on again and be able to lay down… on top of the cover on our bed.

Looking back, I sometimes think that I was waiting …Waiting on Danny to walk back in that front  door of ours…Crazy I know...but then when you have lost the one you love, well….grief does strange things to you…trust me, I know.

So I stayed awake…

Back then;  any night you could have came by and found me sitting up at my computer…and the same folks that I had met by way of my journal…well, they were there with me…

At a time when I needed them the most, they helped me  keep what little bit of sanity I had left…and just like my  family, they helped me make it through the roughest part of my life.

God is so good to us…

I truly believe He puts certain people in our paths to help us when we are at our lowest…because He knows what we need… long before we even realize we are going to need it.

God has continued to bless me with wonderful friends.

Like the song goes…

Oh, I believe there are angels among us
Sent down to us from somewhere up above
They come to you and me in our
darkest hours
To show us how to live
To teach us how to give
To guide us with a light of love                                                                          When life dealt troubled times and had me down on my knees
There's always been someone there to come along and comfort me.



You all know who you are

I hope and pray our Heavenly Father blesses you all in return.


Tuesday, May 4, 2010


This has not been a good week…

Come to think of it, last week wasn’t so hot either….

See, it all started last week when my teeth quit fitting correctly in my mouth…no, not my real teeth…my bottom bridge. I knew that once you start getting old..things start shifting around, but I never knew your teeth would.

So, after being in denture pain hell for a week….Last Monday, I get up the nerve and the money and I take myself to Affordable Dentures in Covington.  Drove my old car there…My thought was, ‘I will just get a new bridge because the other one is so old.’


        Our Little Will 

Well, as my luck would have it…After the whole head x-ray,  the dentist there said that I need my teeth cleaned first for a ‘proper fit’ .  Then he explained that they do not clean teeth…I would have to go to yet another dentist, get another x-ray and get my teeth cleaned…which would cost about $200.00 !  Then I would come back…and oh yes…one of the real teeth needs pulling, so there will have to be another tooth added to the bridge. Then I was sent home….in pain which had to have come from hell…and my bridge sitting cock-sided in my mouth. Once I got home, I slung the dang things into the denture cup.

Wyatt and somebody’s dog

Unfortunately, I am poor…always have been…so that’s no big deal to me…so I had to work …with my cock-sided teeth in my mouth…and pain that ; on a scale from 1-10, was an 18…I worked three days like that…three 10 and 11 hour daysthe whole time trying to come up with a way in my mind to get my teeth fixed. I finally decided that the cheapest route would be to pull the few teeth left on bottom, and then just get a whole new bottom plate.


     Caught sitting on Maw-maw’s table

During the days that I worked, it was all I could do to keep from crying …or vomiting…the pain was that bad. Every night I came home and took a finger nail file to my bottom bridge..I figured since it will have to be re-placed there is no harm done either way. I filed them Thursday night and then Friday night I filed them some more…and before I went to bed that night , I took the de-boning shears that I have and I cut the dad blasted end slap off of them…and then filed some moreSaturday when I went into work, the pain, although still there,…well, let’s just say it was a lot less of it.

All I could think about Sunday, was how Monday morning I was calling that Affordable Dentures and make sure they could pull all the bottom teeth and make me a plate that day! lol


More than one way to ride the girl next door’s scooter!

Monday morning, I got up bright and early and noticed a  little half grown solid white chicken on my old wood shed’s steps….It was so pretty……Then as I waited for the Affordable Denture place to open, I started a load of clothes in the washer….

And when the washer got to the very last spin cycle…it died.  Just then Dan starts screaming for me to come outside….The dang cat had gotten that little chicken and before I could get to him…he killed it.


Our little Will…with his “cow”.

 I go back inside, and as I am wringing out a big load of clothes, my mind is whirling…and the thought that finally became clear was …

‘Well hellthere goes my teeth.

So…what was suppose to be my new set of choppers,  is now sitting in my hall…. washing clothes.

Then today, while sitting making out some of the bills that didn’t come in Monday… I laid my glasses on my desk ,because I got a headache…and then Amanda came up…and since I am blind without my glasses, I couldn’t find them…so I got out of the desk chair and stepped back and heard…c r u n c h….yep…it was my glasses… under my foot.

Amanda was able to put the lens back into the little rim and straighten them up somewhat….


I am still in some pain…

I now have crooked teeth…..


crooked glasses….

But my clothes are clean.