A few days ago, I posted an entry about a booger-bear that had me terrified. I couldn’t say at the time what the booger-bear’s name was, since family and friends read this journal and my kids didn’t know.
But I can tell you now…
That booger-bear’s name was breast cancer.
I had a mammogram. Two weeks later, I got a letter telling me they had found something in my left breast.
Tuesday of last week I had to go back and take new mammograms….
While there, they took me into a room with an X-ray viewer. On the viewer, they had my previous mammogram done in 2004 and right beside it, they had my last mammogram.
Now, I know that is a long time between tests, but after I had my mammogram in 2004, Danny began to have a lot of heart attacks and health problems and we were also going weekly to his arthritis clinic in Atlanta…
So I let the mammograms go….
Then Danny died in 2006 and I let everything go.
I could plainly see the spot in my left breast in the x-rays. I guessed it to be about the size of a pencil eraser on the x-ray…I don’t know how big it was in reality…but it was big enough to scare the hell out of this old country girl.
They took me to the other side of the room and did 3-4 more mammograms…These were different from normal ones, with each one hurting worse than the last…
No, I’m not going to lie or candy coat it…
They had to use extra force to magnify the spot. (My left breast is still bruised.)
I was a big baby….I cried when it was over.
And then I cried for two more days, whenever I thought about it.
Until finally I did what I should have done in the first place…I gave it to God.
I GAVE IT TO GOD.
As soon as I did, that sick nervous feeling in the pit of my stomach left. (Oh, I was still worried, but it wasn’t the same as before.)
Today, I got two calls…one from the State Health Dept. and one from the hospital where the tests were done. They both were telling me that the mammogram showed no mass….
Both said they wanted to tell me beforehand, so I wouldn’t have to wait and worry until I received the formal letter two weeks from now…
Thank God for caring people.
They also told me that I would not have to have another one until 2010!
OH, HAPPY DAY!
I gave that booger-bear to God
Thank you Heavenly Father.
GOD BLESS YOU ALL.