Tuesday, December 22, 2009

WILLIAM THOMAS FRANKLIN KITCHENS

It is with humble gratitude and praise to our Father in Heaven, from whom all sweet blessings come, that I present my second grandson;

             William Thomas Franklin Kitchens:

Born: 12/18/2009 ~ weighing 7lbs. 4oz. ~ length 20 inches

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                                 All cleaned up :

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               My big brother  loves me already!

         He held my tiny hand for a long ,long time.

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             This will be  my very first Christmas! :

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           Look, I can hold my little head up already :

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                         This is my close up!!! :

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Sometimes when you think that the things you want so badly will never happen to you…

And you begin to listen to the “experts” that tell you they won’t ever happen…

You are forgetting  to listen to THE ONE who knows more than anyone else in this world…

Forgive me Lord….

Thank You God for Your many, many blessings on me…I never expected to ever become a grandma…

Then You have blessed me with two beautiful little grandsons…

MERRY CHRISTMAS !

GOD BLESS YOU ALL.

Saturday, November 28, 2009

THINGS WE GET USE TO

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You know it is funny what we get use to…what we take for granted sometimes.

Yesterday would have been my 38th anniversary had Danny not died from a massive heart attack in 2006.  This morning, I was remembering back to that day of many years ago, because today is Saturday and it was actually on a Saturday that we made that long journey to Aiken, S.C.

I was thinking about how long it took us to get there and how I had to sit on Danny’s lap all the way causing my neck to ache for two days afterwards!  Then it dawned on me that the reason my brother-in-law had to take us in his car was because we didn’t have one of our own.

Today people would be aghast wouldn’t they? More so than they may have been back in 1971. That two people, who are only 17 and 18 years old with not but one tiny paycheck to their name and NO CAR was actually thinking about getting married!

Our parents told us that we had to have a house and furniture before we could get married…Well, we had the house…A little three room “shot-gun house”  that we rented from the Cotton Mill where Danny worked at the time. They called it a “shot-gun” house because of the way it was made…three little rooms that went straight through. First the living room, then the bedroom, then the kitchen and as an afterthought ; a bathroom that was built onto the back of the kitchen!  We were lucky that the door to ours was on the inside…some folks had to go out on the back porch to access theirs!

For months we had scrimped and saved enough to buy a used iron bed and a new re-stuffed mattress…a table and four chairs…a stove…and a refrigerator. My mama let us borrow her little twin bed ( also iron) and we used that as a couch in the living room. We had a wringer washing machine and a clothes line to do our clothes. Danny’s BIG MAMA made us sheets for our bed  from cotton sheeting she got from the mill for a wedding present!

We thought we were rich.

It scares me now when looking back…. I realize how poor we actually were . We didn’t have much at all…and we were mere babies.

But you know what?  I wish I still had that old fifties’ style chrome table and chairs, it was so pretty…Same goes for the iron beds and oh, my goodness, what I would give for a stove like I had then …It had two ovens…one big and one small…it had push buttons on the back top of it and three cooking ‘eyes’ and a ‘deep well’ to fry or boil in !  That little bitty refrigerator???  Well, I can not in all honesty say that I would trade in the one I have now for it, because I remember too well the little bitty freezer in the one we started out with! There was only enough room for two ice trays in it! (Plus I hated defrosting that thing!) How did we ever make it without room for frozen meat or vegetables???  We hardly ever could afford much meat and the  main vegetables we had were cabbage, potatoes and dry beans.

Yep…it’s funny what we take for granted sometimes.

Would I go back to those days?

You bet…

In a heart beat….

Because what we had back then…

Was worth more than all the gold in Fort Knox.

GOD BLESS YOU ALL.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

ONCE AGAIN

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My friends; it has been a while since I have updated this “blog” of mine..never can get use to calling it that…To me, it will always be my journal.

It has rained all day here in N.E. Georgia…and it is rather chilly…Yeah… I know… it is November after all…but it has been in the 70’s  around here until today. It is 46 degrees this evening. I paid to have my leaves swept Friday while I was at work and now it is a huge mess again. Money I didn’t have; wasted.

Thanksgiving is right around the corner isn’t it?  I am planning on having lunch here for everyone, then Amanda and Kelvin will be going to his mama’s house afterwards.

Amanda goes back to the OBGYN tomorrow, so wish us luck, ok? I will be so happy to see this baby and know that all is okay with him and his mama.

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I got to see my little Wyatt this afternoon! They all came over and ate the home made vegetable soup that I made. It was so good on a day like today! Wyatt is learning more and more words.

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He can say tractor, Poppa (when he sees the picture of Danny, he always points at it and says “poppa”  ), Hallie , Coco , Bubba ,Annie, (all pups) hot, horse, cow, kitty, mommy, maw-maw, daddy, baby , Dinky,  (Dan’s nickname we call him that Wyatt has picked up on!) just to name a few!

Oh and MOON….he looks for it every time he goes outside! After he kept asking for the moon and looking for it, I found him the little book named “GOODNIGHT MOON” and he loves it. Strange, but it was Amanda’s favorite book too when she was little!

Dan had to go to the doctor last month. He is a diabetic and now he also has to take medicine for high cholesterol and high triglycerides. He has to go back next week. Seems I am spending all my days off at doctors now.

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I am watching Wizard of Oz…I am one of the few who still love this movie after having watched it every year while I was little. I love hearing Judy sing; “ SOMEWHERE OVER THE RAINBOW ” and I can still remember me and my sister laughing ourselves silly when the scarecrow said; “part of me is over there… Those were the good old days…God I miss them.

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I am trying soooo hard not to get into a funk this year…Holidays are so darn hard when your loved ones are gone…especially when you had strong family traditions during them.

I am trying hard to be jolly for little Wyatt and was actually going to put my Christmas decorations up today had it not rained so hard.

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This Friday is my wedding anniversary. We would have been married 38 years had Danny lived. We always said we would be together until our 50th…Having married so young, it never dawned on either of us that one of us could die before that.

Danny was only just turned 17 and me 18. We had to go out of state to Aiken S.C.  because Danny was not old enough to get married in the State of Georgia. Me, Danny, my mama, my daddy, my 2 sisters and my brother-in-law all crammed into his brand new yellow Ford Maverick….a small 2 door car!  Thank goodness I was smaller back then, cause I sat in Danny’s lap all the way up there.

We listened and sang to “Going to the Chapel” which ironically played on the radio over and over  on the way to the courthouse…I remember that it was a Saturday and had drizzled all the way up there and after getting married, the sun came out…I remember that I was so glad the sun finally came out, since the old wives tale says that “if it rains on your wedding day, that’s how many tears you will shed”

The same brother-in-law ( even though now divorced from my sister) that drove us up there to get married, would, 10 years later,  take me and Danny to a hospital over 30 miles away when I came in labor with Amanda…and again, he had a brand new yellow car; a Toyota this time..That day, there was ice on the highway and we skidded trying to avoid a deer that ran out in front of us…but we made it in time for my water to break just as I walked into the ER !

Good Memories….Special Memories….

Every night when I come home from work… every night when I lay my head down on my pillow and slide my arm and leg across the bed to the other side…where now no one lays and the sheets are cold…

It hits me what I have lost.

Trust me….

Make sure your loved one knows how much they mean to you.

There is nothing more heartbreakingly lonesome …

than losing a part of yourself .

GOD BLESS YOU ALL.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

PLAYING CATCH UP

Our little Wyatt loves a broom and mop! Dan made him a tiny broom to sweep his granny’s floor with and he loves it. He grabbed my mop last night and “mopped” my whole living room…and I mean the whole living room! lol  There is a space between the coffee table and couch and he came and got me to move a toy of his so he could “mop” there too! lol  He was so cute.

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Wyatt loves tractors and since there is an old Alice Chalmers (SP???)  in the next door neighbor’s yard behind my house, he has to go visit it everyday that he comes over here! He goes “vroooomm-vroooomm the whole time he is over there at it!        

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   Looking like a little man after getting his hair cut the last time!

Speaking of Wyatt, he has a computerized stuffed dog that I bought at Good Will for 50 cents…This dog will “learn” your commands if you repeat simple commands 3 times…Wyatt will grab this dog out of his toy box and bring it to me and get me to “wake him up” and get him to bark, lay down, or howl etc.

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Last night he brought him to me and I was telling the dog to “Bark” …well we went through that a couple of times and the doggy barked! I then told the dog to “lay down” two times and when he still wouldn’t lay down….Well, by gosh, Wyatt decided to show the doggy how…When I said “lay down” again…Wyatt quickly lay down beside his doggy!  At first I thought it was a coincidence…but I tried it twice more and each time Wyatt quickly “lay down” beside his puppy!  I laughed until my sides hurt!  I had trained my grandbaby to lay down!

My mama is doing okay…I go see her weekly…I will go back Sunday to see her this week…She is in a good place  where the nurses and CNA’s really CARE about their patients….so I know she is taken care of and SAFE. She is forgetting more and more…which is expected …Her short term memory is about 1 minute now…so I repeat over and over while I am there…She remembers some things way back….She has yet to forget me, but she can  not remember her grandchildren…except for Dan, but then she thinks of him as still being a little child…When Amanda goes out here with me, Mama thinks she is a friend of hers that rode the school bus with her….She loves Wyatt when she sees him, but has to be told over and over and over again that he is her great-grandchild….and also what his name is. She holds him while we are there and he seems to realize who she is and will lay his little head on her chest and be just as still…She has begun asking why my daddy don’t come to see her while she is in the hospital…and where is Danny. Daddy  has been dead since 1985 ….and Danny since 2006…This part of the visit is especially hard on me…and sometimes when I leave there I have to sit in my car and just bawl my eyes out before going home….

My tax on my home  nearly tripled this year…and it was a shock that came out of nowhere…something about the governor repealing an exemption.  Thank God that the tax on Mama’s house only went up $40.oo .  I am hoping  and praying that God will help me out…He has helped me so many times…I so hate to keep asking Him for help when I know that there are so many others far worse off than me.

Amanda only has a little less than  two more months to go before we get our new little one in the family! YAY!!! I know she will be so happy! We went to her doctor’s visit today…She is doing good and her stomach measured one week ahead of  what she actually is…so we are hoping that this baby will be a little bigger than Wyatt who weighed only 4 lbs and 15 oz. …She is going every two weeks now…The next time we go, she will have another sonogram…We still don’t know for sure what this little boy will be named…she has a couple of names in mind, but that could change any day!

I am not feeling too good here lately…nothing major…just sinus stuff and allergies…My eyes stay red and blood shot … and I feel generally icky…I have to go to the doctor next week, so maybe he can give me something for it.

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Well, I think I will say goodnight my friends…

GOD BLESS YOU ALL.

Sunday, September 27, 2009

LITTLE ORPHAN ANNIE

This has been a lazy Sunday. I did wash my bed cover and a few loads of clothes and fed all the pets…cooked breakfast and supper, but that’s about it.

We have had heavy rain here for days and days. Today was the first day in a long time that the sun was out all day.Thank you God. I should have cut the grass but it was still soggy out back. I also  had  a bad headache and felt sort of jittery all day…so I am hoping to get it done tomorrow or the next day.

Desperate Housewives is coming on tonight…I can’t wait to see how it begins this season.

Amanda still hasn’t settled on a name for the new little baby! I have told her I am going to call him “baby X” !  She is leaning  toward Weston…but who knows…it could change tomorrow.  (THANK YOU ALL FOR SOME GREAT SUGGESTIONS!) A few of you even suggested Weston!!!

Some of the names she has come up with, well let’s just say, I do not care for them…but then again, I didn’t think I liked the name ‘Wyatt’, but now that he is actually here, I realize that the name fits him so well and I can not imagine him with any other name! God, I love my little grandson and I can not wait to be able to hold the new one!!! Please pray that all goes well with her and this new baby.

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This is Wyatt petting Annie. He loves Annie so much. and she is so gentle around him. Wyatt will toddle over and look out my kitchen window every time he comes over, just to see if he can see her out back and call her, saying, “ Annieeeee” lol

We got Annie one day when Amanda was about 14 or so…Guess that means she is hitting 14 herself now. She was at a flea market… still a young pup, with a man who had her for sale. He didn’t sell her and was heading home, so he went to put Annie in a cage. Bless her heart, she got away, and ran like a striped ape to under his truck.

This idiot got in the truck and revved the motor up and was screaming like a maniac for her to come out…Well, she did  and then ran like hell away from him again…He started yelling and turned and saw Amanda and some other little boy that was standing there watching him act like a fool. He told them”which ever one of you catches that dog can have her, I am leaving”.

Gosh, I hate to say it, but I was so hoping that little boy would catch her first!!! But, oh no…Amanda wasn’t going to let that boy beat her to a puppy…oh no…not my child…She dived at Annie and caught her first! After some hard begging and  pleading and, “Mama, I will tend to her, you won’t have to do anything”; (famous words, huh? ) Annie was soon in our Van and headed back home with us. She was starved half to death and filthy…She ate and lapped water like there was no tomorrow all the way home.

I  named her “Little Orphan Annie” and after a while, we shortened it to just “Annie”.  Let me tell you…she has been one of the best dogs we ever had. Very very smart. When Amanda got married, she left Annie with me and I didn’t mind, because I loved her.

She is old and almost totally blind and deaf now. I use to love to see her run…she could run like the wind…She can’t run very well anymore, her legs are too stiff. She can’t  find her way back home alone and I am so afraid she won’t come back one day, so now  I walk her every day.

It is so sad to see how she has aged…

But she is happy

She is loved and well cared for and she knows it….

And after all….

Being loved and cared for is what really matters most to all of us, isn’t it?

GOD BLESS YOU ALL.

Friday, September 18, 2009

“PAPA???”

We had torrential rains here last night..It rained so hard and for so long (ALL EVENING AND ALL NIGHT LONG) that as I stood washing up my supper dishes at my kitchen sink, I started feeling rain hit me on my head…I looked up and sure enough…it was raining from my kitchen ceiling! I have a huge leak there and also in Dan’s room…Lord have mercy,  if it isn’t one thing, it’s another.  I am leaving this problem up to the good Lord…No; I don’t know where the money will come for this….but I am sure GOD does.

Amanda will be going to the OBGYN every two weeks now, beginning next week. The time is flying by so fast…well, at least for me, maybe not for Amanda.

They still have no idea what to name this little boy….

So I am going to ask yall…

What is a good name for this little boy??? Preferably one that begins with “W”,and  is sort of like a cowboy’s name???  That is what she is leaning toward…right now anyways! lol I told her that it looks like I am going to have to call him;  “ BABY X  ” ! For real, if you can think of any good names, please feel free to leave me a comment...no matter what letter the name starts with!

My nieces’ from Louisville, Ky. came down this past week. That’s Susie on the left and Wendy on the right in the picture below…

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The little girl and baby girl are Wendy’s children; they are my great-nieces!  It was the first time that I had seen the baby girl ! They only stayed for a couple of days, so it was a fast trip and like always I hated to see them go. I didn’t get to see Christina (my other niece) and her children, as she didn’t get to come….but she knows I love her…don’t you Pumpkin???

Wyatt loves tractors! He got to go to a tractor pull not long ago with his mama and  daddy and now he is in love with tractors!  There is one across from my back yard and he wasn’t satisfied, until he got me to take him over there so he could  see it up close and touch it! He would stand there and look at it and be going “brmmmmm---brmmmmmm…” like revving his motor up! He even tried to say “tractor”… it came out “trac-cor” lol

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Wyatt has a new word now… “hot”. He was playing with the pull chain to my bedside lamp, cutting it on and off. I was right there sitting on my bed watching him. The lamp has a florescent light in it that stays cool, thank goodness…but somehow he must had put his hand too close to the base of the bulb..because all of a sudden, he pulled his little hand away and looked right at me and said “hot”…stringing it out long…. saying…..hhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat sounding like “what” …He didn’t cry, just looked very surprised!

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I have no other place to put my deep freezer, except in my bedroom…so it sits right by my bed… The day after Danny died, I figured out that I could put a picture of Danny right there on the side of it and when I lay down…Danny’s face would be the last thing I see before I close my eyes…just like when he lived. It soothes me to see his face before I go to sleep.

Well, after Wyatt got through with his experimenting with my lamp; he sat there on my foot stool and was steadily looking at that picture of Danny…staring hard at it.

I sat on my bed….very still and quiet…just watching him…

I nearly fell off my bed when he pointed at the picture and said very plainly….“ PAPA? ”…I couldn’t believe what I had just heard…so I asked; “ What did you say Wyatt?” and again, he said…plain as day… “ PAPA?” as he touched the picture.

Let me tell you…I had to swallow one hell of a lump in my throat, for this old heart of mine was breaking…

I said, with some difficulty, “Yes Darling…that is your PAPA”. He patted the picture…as he tends to do with the puppies when he loves on them…saying; “ PAPA” the whole time…I had been taking pictures of him with the lamp and so I snapped these too.

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I so wish that Danny could have lived long enough for Wyatt to have known him and to have known the love that He would have gotten from such a wonderful “PAPA”…..

Never the less…He will know all about his “PAPA” ….

As long as there is still breath in this old body of mine, he will know.

I Thank YOU God for this wonderful little child YOU sent to us.

GOD BLESS YOU ALL.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

PLEASE LET TOMORROW BE BETTER

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Me and Dan spent the day at home…

doing nothing

but a few chores that just had to be done.

Amanda went fishing with Kelvin and his family…She asked if we wanted to go, but I knew that, since she had went with them in the past too, it was a family thing and I didn’t want me and Dan to intrude on it.

All day, I kept remembering back to the Labor Day Holidays when Danny was living…

Our whole family would get up early and go to the Crawfordville Fair, find a place to park far away… walking up the hilly street to the old town… that only comes to life on Labor Day….watching the parade with the antique cars and the Shriner’s funny cars, the old fire trucks,   and all the small town marching school bands……

Danny eating his must have snow cones and we buying muskedines and ice cold coca-colas and listening to live country music from bands on the Court House lawn……

Coming home hot and tired and a just little bit sunburned….

Then cooking out and having a picnic at home…

with our family.

Today was nothing like that…

nothing at all.

I was thinking, as I drove me and Dan out to the local Pizza Hut to eat supper…( a last ditch effort on my part to try to save at least the last part of the day)…

I was thinking…

As I drove along looking at the highway…

stretched out in front of me…

This is it

This is what the rest of my life will be like…

One long boring gray highway…..

No more good times

Even if I did go somewhere

there would be…

only me and Dan

(Who doesn’t talk …

unless he is angry…

And wants to fuss)

There would be…

No Danny to talk to….

Ever again.

I will try to be in a better mood on my next post….ok?

To tell you the truth…

My world is looking sort of bleak right now…

GOD BLESS YOU ALL.

Friday, September 4, 2009

BEFORE I GO TO WORK …

Another work day is about to begin. This weekend will be a busy one…We have Labor Day, the first day of Dove Season and Georgia Bulldog game day today and all these events will bring in the people and the big orders.

I picked my sister Dorris up and we went to visit my mama Wednesday.  As soon as I walked in her room, she grabs me and lets me know that ‘she has it all figured out’…She says that me, her and Dorris will buy a house and we will all live together…  ‘ But it will have to wait until she is better and can get out of the hospital’. God bless her, if she only knew how I wish a thousand times a day that I could somehow win the lottery or such and buy that house somewhere and put us all in it with 24/7 nurses for her….maybe I could even buy one back on Horseshoe Bend, huh? Dreams….I have big ones, don’t I?

Speaking of dreams…I had one last night about me, and Danny and his family…we were all together again..even those that had passed on were there..and ..well, it was such a nice dream…so good to see everyone again and all be back together again, enjoying ourselves.

In real life, Danny’s mama was always planning special trips for us to take. In the summer time we would all get together and travel up to the Smoky mountains in Tenn. and North Carolina and stay for a few days. She would pack a picnic lunch and we would all stop somewhere on the side of the road where the picnic tables use to be up in those hills and eat. She always brought ham and her famous homemade pimento cheese and lunch meats packed in their old Coleman ice chest.

I can remember when Dan was only three or so and him saying to his grand-daddy Noggle; “Paw-Paw…I want to go see the “Injuns” ( the tribe in Cherokee N.C.) …and we would. We didn’t know it then, but those were some of the best days of our lives….All Danny’s sisters and their husbands and their kids and his parents and us…Danny’s mama was always bringing us together…On every holiday she would come up with some kind of gathering…We always had such good times together….I sure do miss those days.

My little Wyatt is growing so fast…I am so glad that I took lots of picture when he was a tiny little baby…

Here are a few recent ones…

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Here he is with his ducky in his mouth! lol

I have to go for now …

Got to get ready to go to work…

My friends….. yall be careful, take care

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GOD BLESS YOU ALL.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

ANOTHER YEAR OLDER…

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So..here it is ….another year that I have been upon this earth, and though I have climbed up  many slippery mountains and been down to the very valley of defeat and despair, I am still grateful to be here God…and I Thank You.

I think back to how hard it must have been for my mama to carry me during the hottest of summer months down here in Georgia. Now, I had Dan in August so I know how hot you get. Pregnancy can be a strain on any woman, but she had to do it with no running water….no air-conditioning…only a little bitty fan that osculated a little air around in a very tiny space….Heck, come to think of it, I’m not even sure she had that fan, which is the only one we had as a child. Back when she was pregnant with me, there may not have been any fan. God bless my mama for all the hard times and struggles that she went through trying to raise all us six children in those days. I am totally sure we have not yet made up for even a tiny fraction of her pain and misery.

Sunday evening we had a very hard down pour of rain and a very bad thunderstorm which lasted on into the night. Monday morning, I awoke to find all my tomato vines, still in their pots, laying over on the ground. My tomato vines were slap full of tomatoes and I lost 99% of them. I picked up over 90 green tomatoes from the ground:

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The vines were all broken apart…

This is the way they use to look:

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and this is how they look now….after me and Dan cleaned them up; saving what we could.

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As you can see, I also lost one whole pot. Made me want to cry. I was so proud of my tomatoes…maybe too proud…They say “Pride goeth  before a fall”, don’t they? Well, they sure fell.

I brought all the green tomatoes into the house and washed them up. Then I started slicing them. Amanda fried a few for us for breakfast and they were so good.  Yes…breakfast!!! lol

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Thank goodness I remembered that I found out that you could freeze them…so I froze the rest of the slices in ziplock freezer bags. Needless to say, I had a lot of bags to put into  my freezer. We won’t be giving out anytime soon.

Amanda  and Kelvin gave me and Dan a surprise birthday party Sunday afternoon. Dan’s birthday was August 16th and mine is today, so she combined them into one big party. We have family, Jady and David,  with birthdays in August  and they were included also. Kelvin cooked pork chops on the grill and Amanda fixed some awesome baked beans and potato salad…Some of mine and Dan’s favorite foods. Oh…and she made boiled peanuts for Dan!!! He was so happy! She did good and I am proud of both her and Kelvin for showing us how much they love us. I wish I had thought to get some pictures.

Here is a picture of my newest little grandson-to-be…

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He is due on Dec 28, 2009. That is also Amanda’s ( his mommy’s) birthday and my mama’s birthday..how awesome is that????  They may take him earlier though since she will have to have a c-section..but just knowing his due date is on their birthdays is very special. That would be three generations on one day.

Here are some pictures of my first little grandson…who has his grandma wrapped around his little fingers and toes…

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Sucking a sucker a very special friend sent to him!

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He won’t let go of his sucker long enough to play! lol

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With his Uncle Dan…look at that pout! lol

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Watching the doggies…

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On a riding toy grandma got for him yesterday! He got right on it as soon as he saw it!  He loves riding toys! He is walking good now and is climbing onto everything like a little monkey!  Needless to say, he is getting lots of knots on his little head.  He busted his lip Monday trying to climb onto the chair top! TRUST ME…HE IS ALL BOY!!!

I went to Good-Will  yesterday while in Athens, and look what I found for just $1.61 ….it was so cute that I couldn’t pass it up. I see where it takes batteries in the pumpkin, so I will be going to get some today.

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Well, I have got to go see my mama today, so I best be getting up from here and getting ready….

Take care my friends….

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GOD BLESS YOU ALL.

Sunday, August 9, 2009

SUNDAY

 

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I am  so  bored…. I never thought I would use that  child-like expression. I guess that it’s a good thing to be bored in a way….Think about it…If you are bored , then you have no immediate big or tragic problems in your life.

Oh sure, I have lots of problems ; a 13 year old car that needs replacing, no money to replace it with, bills out of the Y-ZOO that I will have to work till I die to pay,  and a refrigerator that has been a pain in the butt since I bought it new three years ago…just to mention a few of the monetary problems of my life…but I have no immediate life or death problems ( that I know of anyway) and for that I am grateful God…. prayer38

 

But I am still b-o-r-e-d.

As I was thinking this morning, I know what it is

When Danny was alive; we use to get up on the days that I didn’t work and get in the car and ride the country roads…or go fishing in the boat or on the bank of the lake….or go grocery shopping or ride to the nearby  mountains…or visit friends and family….or just talk….to each other.

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Oh sure, I could still do most all of that by myself …( if I had the “want to”) , but I know it wouldn’t be the same without Danny there with me… The fun, the excitement and the wonder that we experienced together wouldn’t be there either….so….

I am left with being bored.

I do not go to see Amanda or Wyatt on Sundays, because that is the only day that she and Kelvin and Wyatt have alone together as a family…

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Wyatt in my old tin tub last week.

So, I spent today alternately playing Farm Town on Face Book and taking naps. There is something sort of sad and pitiful about a 55 year old woman having to play Farm Town for company isn’t it?

Oh, I didn’t lollygag around all day…I got up around 6:30 am  and swept the floors, made the bed, washed the clothes, mopped the floors,  picked the tomatoes, walked the dogs, (45 times it seems), washed the front porch off,  washed the car, did the dishes, took a shower, and eventually cooked supper. ( We had fried green tomatoes, great northern beans, fried okra, hamburger patties and gravy…and sweet ice tea)

So no, I didn’t just sit here staring at the walls.carleneDs Designs Change           

 

You know…

I guess what I am truly feeling is alone and empty

Like part of me is missing

And it is.

Yes, that’s the right word…

Empty.

GOD BLESS YOU ALL.

Monday, July 27, 2009

A LITTLE FAIRY PRINCESS

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In recent news headlines, there are tales of adultery, murder, robberies, kidnapping and general mayhem…

But nothing has quite affected me like this story form the MIAMI HEARALD  that I read today.

I am still crying.

Just a little girl….God bless her little heart…Only turned 6 in June ….and she is dying from a brain tumor that has spread to her spine. She has bravely fought long and hard…ever since she was only three years old….but now doctors have exhausted all treatment options and have given her only three to six months to live.

When asked by  Kids Wish Network from Holiday, Fla. what was her one wish…

It was this:

She wanted to be a Princes

You know…

The kind from fairy tales and story books….

All the sweet little things that make up an important part of a little girl’s life…

So…

The good folks at Kids Wish Network from Holiday, Fla. gave to her a princess gown, a white rose headband,a white pearl tiara, a pair of white gloves and a  white, horse drawn pumpkin shaped carriage, decorated with pink and purple flowers….Gildiana’s favorite colors….

 To carry her to the place she most wanted to go to….

Wal-Mart.

Not the usual store for little princesses, but, it is where her mama shops…

 and all she knows.

There she was given a $1000.00 gift card, with which she bought…

Dora the Explorer and Tinkerbelle dolls.

Just take a minute and imagine what her mama is going through…

She is watching her baby become the princess that she has always longed to be … but just for one special day.

I have said it more than once and I will say it again…

If you are lucky enough to have a loved one close by…don’t take for granted one minute of time with them….

Show them that you Love them while you can…

After all….

None of us know when…

the little glass slipper will fall off.

“ MAY GOD BLESS AND KEEP WATCH OVER YOU LITTLE  GILDIANA SOZA ”

If you have the time; please stop and send an email message of good wishes to little  GILDIANA SOZA  and her mommy  at:

jfarmer@MiamiHerald.com

He is the one who wrote the story for the Miami Herald and will send them on to them.

 

GOD BLESS YOU ALL.

Monday, July 20, 2009

I HAD A VISITOR

I swear the older I get the faster time goes by…No wonder older people are diagnosed with dementia…their poor minds can’t keep up with the rate that time flies! In ten more years; if the Lord lets me live that long, I probably won’t even know who I am…much less anything else!

I had a visitor in my back yard this past Thursday and Friday….

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This baby deer was so innocent, that when I spotted it behind my shed, I held out my hand to it and called it; “Here Baby…here Baby…” and it actually came up to me and rubbed it’s little head on my legs and let me pet it!!! I had been worrying  about animals eating my tomatoes but, as soon as I felt it’s little head nuzzle against my legs, it held my heart right then…and could have eaten all my tomatoes!

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Can you see my hand in the left-hand corner of the picture??? It stood there for a few minutes while I petted it…I saw it again this afternoon …running across my back yard. Now, I live right smack dab in town, only a couple of blocks from Broad street and the houses in my neighborhood are side by side, with many people coming and going most of the time. That baby deer came from a tiny field that is right behind my house.

Speaking of tomatoes…I had Dan go pick a couple of green ones and I fried them up for supper tonight, along with some pinto beans and homemade biscuits. They were sooooooooo good!

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Here are two huge ones that were growing on the German Queen vine…No he didn’t pick those….I picked those Sunday. Matter of fact, here is one of them next to a regular size tomato…so you can see how huge it is!

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Here are the latest pictures of Wyatt:

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‘I am happiest shopping with mama and grandma!’

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   ‘I was having such a good time!!’

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‘One day last week, my grandma said that since I was such a good boy at the grocery store, she gave me a lollipop !!! My mama had a cow…but I loved , loved, loved it! lol lol’

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‘Here I am eating with my grandma at Zaxby’s . I would dip each bite of French fry exactly three times in the ranch sauce! I ate 4 whole chicken strips too!!!  Of course I shared my ranch sauce with grandma…all over grandma! lol’

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‘Mommy and daddy took me to the park last week in Madison…this is my first ride in a real swing and I loved it!!! I even went down the slide!’

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‘I have found out that I can get my toes into my mouth…so today, while grandma pushed me down the sidewalk in my little car, I alternated from one to the other!’

(Amanda didn’t get her sonogram done…they want to wait until she is twenty weeks… so she will go back August 12th to get it done. I can’t wait to find out what this one is! )

I will leave you with this thought….

Be good to those you love…hug them and kiss them and tell them how much they mean to youhow they have made your life betterand how much you love them…It doesn’t take up much of your time and you just never know if you will ever have that chance again.

GOD BLESS YOU ALL.